Today my middle daughter started banging on pots and pans with utensils when she heard me and my older daughter arguing in my bedroom. I stupidly shouted at her " Stop that, I can't hear myself!" The argument heated up and turned into one of those that go down into the books but you wish you could forget forever. My screaming made all the kids cry and made my oldest scream louder. I was a horrible role model and felt empty and sad all night. I ask everyone for forgiveness and told my middle daughter that I would listen to her clue next time she started banging on pots and pans. Love middle kids for this.
All my children sweetly granted me their forgiveness and I pleaded with Jesus for more that night while in bed. I felt like he held me. ( Kirby was out of town, thus the screaming would never have happened also showing my lack of self control without another adult in the house ) Pots and Pans sound way better than a screaming Mama.
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